Teeny food bits and remembering what is wanted

I haven't blogged. I kind of haven't been cooking much. I haven't been super-connected to food and cooking in any way that is worth sharing, I guess. I wish I had more to offer than that. I'm trying to get back to it. I did add flax seed to a kale salad and that was good. I added chia seeds to my english muffin. Score.

A recommendation from Fett that I enjoy is miso paste on toast, especially the mellow. Try it!

Also-Fett has been adding seltzer to red wine, typically a dark and deep merlot, and it is really good. Try that too! I've been digging on vodka and seltzer with frozen mango. Limes and cucumbers have made debuts lately too, especially when we had dry cucumber soda.

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So.

Discipline is remembering what I really want. I had a post-it that said this next to my dissertation work-station. I got that behemoth done. Time to get some other shit done. Time to remember and focus on what really matters.

What do I really want?
-to be a genuine, kind, and supportive parent who gets out of the way whenever possible. I need to trust Punky more and be supportive and firm and encouraging with less emotional valence.

-to be a genuine, kind, and supportive friend and girlfriend who gets out of the way whenever necessary.

-to be independently motivated and kind to self. hard to say what that really looks like. i need to think on that one.

-to pass licensure exam--I sure as hell know what that looks like.

-to get licensed--which means make some money and become more independent, decrease stress, and begin to save in a real way for retirement, the future, and my son.

-to be present and genuine with my clients and help them to the best of my ability and let go when I cannot, potentially letting them go if I cannot

-to train and focus on a competition or goal, sports/fitness-wise. Have i mentioned that I did great at and loved my sprint triathlon? well, I did and I did. i got second in my age group and blew my goal time out of the water. I also would have been first if it wasn't for my transition times and maybe shaving a little off the swim. I won the running and biking parts, a full minute ahead on the bike. BOOM

So. those are a few things I want and a few things i'm going to focus on. there are probably more related to moving and organizing and revisiting a spiritual practice. That will do for now.